Adoption is the most impossible love. It feels like those first few weeks of my pregnancy with Stella. I worried so much that something would happen and I found myself waiting to celebrate. That's exactly how I feel right now.
We were just informed that it will take a significantly longer amount of time to adopt two children. Our case worker advised us to consider being contacted if one child becomes available. This is all well and good but our hearts have been set on two children. We have prayed for those nameless babies for months now. Every time I run an errand or do a chore around the house, I picture doing it with three in tow. Now, to reconsider and change my mindset to one is really hard.
I know that the Lord is in control and he knows exactly what our family needs, it just feel overwhelming at times.